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closetothesun) wrote2015-01-21 09:28 pm
closetothesun) wrote2015-01-21 09:28 pm
January 18, 633 AR
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]
Ohhh, come on, Aes! Put your chin up!
This isn't like me. Everyone is happy that I'm alive! And I'm just -- Urian doesn't even deserve it. He doesn't. All the things that I keep thinking about, they were never real. He was fake and cruel and terrible right from the start and missing him just lets him win!
I won't just... just curl up. I need to go on! Zaniel is going to be here in a week and I want him to see me strong and in control and not weeping over Urian!
He doesn't deserve it.
He doesn't.
So...
So... what is it they say? Fake it til you make it? Yeah. That's what I'm going to do. Fake it until I make it! And I'm going to start by going to the church and sitting down and listening to a sermon for real! No more wishywashy! I owe it to Karlesta, at least!
And maybe...
Maybe it'll give me some answers.
Oh -- but one thing first. Urian took the Night of Floating Fire away from me? Well -- well, I'll make a bigger scene than he could have imagined!
[Filter: Public, in Atsirian]
Queen Edalene! I've decided what I want for my boon!
Everyone knows that you keep close council with your cousin, Reiz! Well... I'd like your blessing, then! To marry him! So when he comes in here and I propose, we'll do it with all Atsiria behind our backs!
Ohhh, come on, Aes! Put your chin up!
This isn't like me. Everyone is happy that I'm alive! And I'm just -- Urian doesn't even deserve it. He doesn't. All the things that I keep thinking about, they were never real. He was fake and cruel and terrible right from the start and missing him just lets him win!
I won't just... just curl up. I need to go on! Zaniel is going to be here in a week and I want him to see me strong and in control and not weeping over Urian!
He doesn't deserve it.
He doesn't.
So...
So... what is it they say? Fake it til you make it? Yeah. That's what I'm going to do. Fake it until I make it! And I'm going to start by going to the church and sitting down and listening to a sermon for real! No more wishywashy! I owe it to Karlesta, at least!
And maybe...
Maybe it'll give me some answers.
Oh -- but one thing first. Urian took the Night of Floating Fire away from me? Well -- well, I'll make a bigger scene than he could have imagined!
[Filter: Public, in Atsirian]
Queen Edalene! I've decided what I want for my boon!
Everyone knows that you keep close council with your cousin, Reiz! Well... I'd like your blessing, then! To marry him! So when he comes in here and I propose, we'll do it with all Atsiria behind our backs!